old habits die hard.

so, freshman year i drank a lot, smoked a lot and dyed my hair a lot. since then, i've pretty much stopped doing all three, except for the occasional couple of beers here and there as well as some drunken fun every few months. my hair no longer changes color every three weeks and is no longer short, scraggly and layers upon layers of bleach and color. it is long, shiny, and it's natural brown black.. and finally healthy for the first time in years. and yet, i've been aching to pick up a package of hair dye at CVS or something lately. nothing wild and crazy, but maybe just a tinge of reddish? a dark brown instead of brown/black? i dunno.. and i've also been seriously thinking about buying a pack of cigarettes. it's not an addiction; i quit over two years ago and have had maybe five or six cigarettes since (usually on the rare drunken night). but, it is serious thinking and not serious consideration. i think that with college coming to an end and the working life ahead, part of me is just trying to return to days past (even though most of me is absolutely aching to get the hell out of here). that, or i'm just plain bored and a little lonely. which is, actually, very very true and more than likely real culprit here. though, don't ask how hair dye and cigarettes would do anything to amend that situation because i have no idea.